my strongest suit

One thing I love about about clothes is the sheer power of wearing it. Have you ever notice that when you put on a certain top or a pair of jeans, it influences your mood and your outlook? Sometimes, you dress to speak the state of your mind and sometimes you dress just to prove a point. To a lot of my close friends, I know what a hassle it can be to go out sometimes. Matching the tops and bottoms with the shoes, deciding if it's appropriatte for the venue, thinking if anyone's seen you in it, pondering the activity of that outing. It can be mind numbing sometimes and it annoys me when nothing seems to go right. Like my hair!! I'm just so tempted at times to just shave it all off.

And that's just the outer wear. What about inner wear? Ha..ha.. This is a whole new topic. VPLs, comfort, colour. I'm a boxers guy but sometimes it is necessary to wear other forms of underwear cos of the jeans/slacks i'm wearing. And thank God i only have to worry about what I wear down below. Ladies, I salute you for your extra hassle to dressing up.

The Spice Girls once wrote a song called My Strongest Suit that sings about underwear and how you are as strong as your underwear. Go figure.. If i was a woman, i'd only be wearing Victoria's Secret stuff. The designs are utterly amazing. And everytime there's a VS fashion show, i'd drop whatever I'm doing. It is fascinatingly eye catching. With the feathers and the whole goddess vibe. Visually stunning. The latest collection show was hosted by none other than Justin Timberlake. And for those of you who haven't seen it, here are some pics.

I especially love Giselle in her angelic glory! Amazing!! This is supermodel. Go underwear!!

all the world is a stage

Recently the company i work for had it's annual dinner. And this year's theme was Movie Icons. The moment this announcement was made and the theme was revealed, I can safely say everyone went into a frenzy over what to dress up as and how to outshine each other. I didn't want to spend so much time thinking, so I went with James Bond. Simple yet dashing.

I really didn't want to go but the curiousity to check out the costumes and to see people dressing up as their alter ego would be decidedly fascinating. Kind of our own Halloween. Also I wanted to laugh at all the wannabe stars. And boy, were there many of them!

I made my own grand entrance. Fashionably late. I was shocked at the wide array of costumes and colours!! Amazing! I didn't have time to pose with everyone cos I had to do my social rounds as is obligatory for the social butterflies.

There were Trojan warriors, Snow White, Grim Reaper, Tarzan, CatWoman, MoulinRouge girls, cowboys, vampires, angels and so many more!

It was fun.

First up, Mr.Bond himself.

This is Bond and a heroine from Devdas.

Bond and Marilyn.
Bond and an angel from Studio 54
From left, Audrey Hepburn, Bond, Queen Amidala and The Phantom Of The Opera.

It was a fun night. But not as fun as the after party. We went to a club called BED. Utterly fascinating place. It's located underground. But there were no beds around at all, so i don't understand the name. So anyway, one of the girls in my group had unknowingly attracted the eye of an admirer and he allowed us the use of his credit card!! The best part is we don't even know who the fella is. Until today. All we knew, the waiter kept on coming up to us and insisted we buy more drinks cos the fella was more than willing to pay. We opened bottles, did shots, and lots more. Needless to say, no one could walk straight after that.

Extreme fun night.

santa baby

If only Santa looked this hot, I would be good all year long!

ooh aah

Came across this cool ads recently. So I'm sharing. After all it is the season to share..

Extreme funny. I like the love hate one. Very classy. But Pamela? What was she thinking?!

sexyback

I've been craving for a massage for ever so long especially for my back. I can feel the knots in my shoulder whenever I shower. So finally yesterday, i booked myself a full body massage at a leading massage centre here in KL. It's very classy and sophisticated cos I so don't want any hankypanky on the side kind of place. But I did request for a male masseur cos I am very shy and I've had so many experiences with females masseurs who fall in love with me ;) I'm not kidding!! Just ask my massage buddy Stef and she will give testimony to the many times we've gone for massages together and she winds up getting bad treatment cos they're all fawning over me.

But anyway.. When i caught a glimpse of my masseur, I knew I was in trouble. He was hunky and sweet looking. I told myself this was not gonna be easy. And so i took off my clothes and changed into the pajama bottoms provided. And he covered my eyes with a warm towel as he begin my massage. Which I have to say was extremely sensual and slightly erotic! I kept thinking this is something different. Good treatment.

He started with my legs. Then he ask me to lie on my stomach as he worked on my back. He then pulled down the pants I was wearing slightly. And he asked, "U not shy?" I was like.. Umm.. No. And as he worked on my lower back, i realize the pants was going lower and lower until my entire butt was exposed! And he enjoyed working his magic there. I was like, OH Boy.. this is soooo not gonna be good. Then he pulled my pants back up and told me to turn around and lie on my back. Now he began on my chest and stomach. And guess what? He pulled my pants so low until the gutters of the pants touched the base of my penis. Exposing everything else above. I was convinced this is more than what other clients get. And when he got to my head, I swear I felt soft pecks on my cheeks and forehead. I was like, wait A minute. I didn't get this when I was getting traditional Thai massages in Bangkok. Hmm..

And then he started asking me for my age all the while sensually rubbing me down. And he started talking about my looks and finally the magic words.. Do u have a boyfriend. I just uttered NO. And then.. all hell broke loose! We kissed and kissed and kissed. And explored each other's body. Keep in mind, i haven't done this in awhile ;) We would up blowing each other. And kissing more.

The session ended with him telling me he wants to be my boyfriend. He kept holding my hand and not letting go. And he put his hand on his heart and said something in Thai and then placed that hand on my heart and smiled. I'm like OH LORD.. Is this guy declaring his love for me? He gave me his number and was all smiles.

I came out from the massage centre all shiny and rejuvenated. Getting more than I bargained for. And very happy too!!

taller in more ways

Recently, i did a flight to Brunei. It was delayed one hour. As I was walking towards the boarding hall to lead my passengers to my aircraft, i noticed a small group of people gathered there at my particular boarding gate. In fact, it was a small huge gathering of people. All the ram guys alot of the gate staff and guest services were there. It was like there was a small commotion going on. As I drew closer, i could see a man towering above the rest and speaking. It looked to me like this one moron was not at all pleased with the delay and had stood on the counter top in protest. I was like, WHY DO I GET THE WEIRD ONES ON MY FLIGHT? WHY?

When I reached my gate, I was surprised to find that he wasn't standing on the counter and it wasn't a protest. What it was was the fact that Malaysians being typical busybodies had gathered around to witness the world's tallest man. I'm not kidding. This guy was a giant!! Tall and towering. He was 8 feet high. Most of the people only came up to his waist. Me, of course abit higher la. But everyone was taking photos and posing with him and going on and on and on. Causing the delay to be even longer. And also brought up another problem. There was no way he was gonna fit into our aircrafts. He had to bend all the time. Poor fella.

He was travelling with his entourage of 8 and they were going on a world tour. And in their group was the world's shortest man who only came up to my knee! Talk about publicity gimmicks. We got him a seat at the first row and his legs practically blocked everything.

And I don't know why.. but for some reason everyone I told this episode to kept on saying "Wonder how big his penis is?" I'm like HELLO?! and EEEW. I think that is just sick. But then again it is human nature, I guess. I never asked his name but i do know they're from Pakistan. As tall as I am, I wouldn't want to be as tall as him. It's tough as it is finding clothes for my size, imagine going thru life having everything custom made.

Laters..

happy birthday!

This is my officical shout out to birthday girl Nalini! This woman is one of the best things that has happened in my life. I cannot imagine my life without her. She's been rocking my world since the day I got to know her and I'm so glad I can still be with her. We share so much, we've been thru so much, we've loved so much and we've always pulled thru. She's one of the pillars on my life and I'll never forsake her.

Tonight, I'm raising my glass up to you Nalini dear. Have a blast on your special day!

Wish I could be there with you to raise the roof!!

Love always..

baby one more time

After what seemed like forever, Britney said good riddance to her bad white thrash sorry excuse for a human hubby!!

Britney fans, gay men and I think just about everyone around the world rejoice at the news!! Seriously, it is about time. He was such a pain to watch and it pained me and alot of people to see her life being so pitifully wasted because of this prolonged puppylove. Never saw what she saw in him. He is pathetic and hopeless. And am positively livid that she has said goodbye and is hitting back at him!

All hail Princess Britney!!

don't speak

My friend Caramel and I were talking about school life and who we were in high school and what we did and how we did it, and the conversation became rather interesting. It's always nice to talk about the past and laugh about things that did not seem funny at that time and cherish all those good times. So anyway, I just have to share this funny incident that Caramel told me. It involves his Momma smacking him clear across the living room. I'm like WAHT?!

Apparently one day, after the end of the major exams, Caramel had skipped school without his Momma's knowledge. This is after all common practice. It's either you don't go at all or you run away at some point. And it just so happens that on that day, Caramel's Momma visits the school. Why is she visiting the school? Cos she's president of the school PTA!! Imagine her surprise when one of the teachers tell her, "I hope your son is feeling alright. Will he be in school tomorrow?" Recovering from her shock and acting cooly but burning inside, she said, "Yes. Yes. He'll be back tomorrow. Just a small case of runny nose."

Back home, the charade went on. Poor Caramel pretending he just came back from school. His Momma asking him how his day was. And he went on and on about it. All the while adding fuel to his Momma's rage. Then suddenly, "Caramel, please come down here for a moment". Innocently with eyes wide open, "Yes, Momma?"

"Tell me the truth now. And I want the truth. Where did you go today? And I know it wasn't school you went to cos I was there!"

That was when a war of words started. He denying despite the fact the he had been caught red handed. But he kept on denying. And she screaming at him for being a liar and disappointing her. On and on. And of course, the words got harsher and harsher. To a point where she said, "You son of a bitch! Shut up when I'm talking to you!"

And he went, "Well! Whose the bitch now?!"

And with that her hand shot out and he went clear across the room!!

But all went well after that.. I guess they both needed to let out pent up anger. Ha..ha.. But Caramel's Momma is one cool woman. She used to be a DJ and she's very up with the times. Heck, she's even recently asked him, "Caramel, have you got a boyfriend yet? You're not getting younger you know.." How cool is that? Although, personally I'd die if my mum ever asked me that.

So there you have it. High school.. Such a turbulent time!

i put a spell on you

Hey all,

For those of you who have not seen the movie THE COVENANT, please do yourselves a favor and go watch it. It is simply eye candy pleasing ;)

The movie was a big hit over there recently and it finally made it to our shores. This is like the male version of the movie The Craft (which is like one of my all time favs)! Where else would you find cute hunks with witchcraft to their names dressed in gorgeous attires and sharing a brotherhood? And not to mention, they are all on the swim team which means there are scenes of them in skimpy trunks!! And I mean skimpy! I don't think it's legal to wear trunks like that unless you have perfect bods. Simply gorgeous.

And the town where the movie is made is simply beautiful. I wish i could live there. It so gorgeous. Cool movie. You may have to close one eye over the wooden acting of some of the actors and some of hte loopholes but other than that, it's a cool movie. I couldn't find any proper photos to post but these 2 would do. Check out the site THE COVENANT for more info or go catch the movie and tell me what you think. Hot hot boys!!

me and you

Last Saturday, my sister and I did some last minute shopping at Sungei Wang. It is indeed a bad idea to go to that area on a weekend because of the bad traffic and becos of the lack of parking space. But this was important, it was her birthday and I wanted to get her a phone. But since the poor dear couldn't decide on a phone after browsing a few stores, I decided a digital camera would do. Then we walked around some more and scanned and commented on the crowd.

When we had had enough, we discovered it was not only raining cats and dogs, it was raining buffaloes and cows as well!! It was HEAVY HEAVY rain coupled with massive thunder and lightning. And we had parked the car in Starhill cos we had lunch there earlier. So getting from Sungei Wang to Starhill was not gonna be easy. Especially with our shopping. We took the overhead bridge into Lot 10 and pondered of running in the rain towards Lot 10 which by then had seemed to had gotten worst. Then my sister suggested we just purchase an umbrella from Guardian upstairs cos if we were to run, we'd be soaked thru. Logical. 3 floors up, we pass by this shop which just called our names! It was called THEATRE. And I've never seen it before. It has awesome clothes!! Both for guys and girls. And I must say their clothes have a very dramatic flair. Very cool. We wound spending some money ;) Then to Guardian. The umbrella only cost 9.90 but we spent about 60ringgit on other stuff. I tell you, typical shopaholics!!

And guess what? Upon attempting our 3rd time into the downpour, we discovered the rain had stopped. How ironic!! How long were we in there anyway? Madness.. And my sis also would up carrying back home this paper bag of clothes that she had intended to give her friend R, when we met her earlier. None of us realized it until we were home. Talk about your mad days. But it was fun. She turned 21 on that day and there was a huge gala dinner at my place. And I mean HUGE!! We catered this huge bbq thing with 2 chefs who meticulously carved away at the lamb that my dad had specially bought. It was a whole lamb!! Speared thru and roasting over the charcoal. There was satay. And ice kacang and all the usual stuff. Mad rush of people came too. Fun day.

Nothing in this world

I just have to post these pics up. Took them in Perhentian Island way back in July. There's a whole lot more photographs to share but in the end, i decided these 2 would pretty much sum up my feelings on that awesome and unforgetable holiday.

Yup, just call us camera whores. Front row: JK, PY, Nazi and Jervis. Backrow: Yours truly.

I like to call this one our very own toothpaste ad. Everyone is showing so much shiny teeth! This was taken after we went snorkelling around Perhentian. We caught glimpses of turtles and fishes and of course trash. PLUS we had our very own dramatic lifeguard rescue!!

Amazing trip! To those who haven't been, do go. You won't regret it. Check out their site -> Perhentian. Til then..

sweet dreams

One of my most favourite place to be in this world is Sungei Wang Plaza in Bukit Bintang. I think it is truly a fascinating space where you can find everything and anything under the sun. Sungei Wang is also the place where you'll see everything from the freakiest to the awesome. And I aint' talking about the clothes. I'm talking about the people who patronize Sungei Wang. They come from all walks of like and in all shapes, sizes and COLOURS! I tell you, the futuristic fashions you see here are truly an inspiration to the creative mind. You either stand in shock or admire the courage of the bearer. And what about the hair colour and hairstyles on display? All from the truly bizarre to the downright wat-was-he-thinking? And the irony is.. there are tons of saloons on every corridor and corner. And they are always full no matter the time of day and I have seen ladies with foil wrapped around their heads browsing thru clothes store and magazines.

I fell in love with Sungei Wang after leaving high school and discovering the world on a much broader scale. True, the first few years, I always got lost in Sungei Wang no matter how many times i visit it. Most of the floors look the same and it's easy to get caught up in all the array of styles and wonders. But now, I am proud to say that I know my way around Sungei Wang and can usually tell you where a certain store is.

I truly enjoy going to Victoria Music Station next to Vincci. They sell original CDs for very good prices and they have the most unbelievable CD collection. Better than Tower Records. Plus they know me so they always give me more discount. I usually spend at least 150 there. Break time in between shopping is always at Zang Toi's for their gorgeous chocolate cake with ice cream. Just the thought of it is sending shivers down my spine. I was there the other day and this woman cam eover to the cake display and I swear she had her orgasm right there! She was moaning and squealing in delight while pointing at the piece of chocolate heaven to her friends. At one point, she even had her eyes closed. God only knows what she was thinking.

I enjoy browsing thru the glorious arrays of handphone shops. And if you are close to me, you'd know by now that I am truly addicted to phones! The temptation to buy one everytime i go there is enormous! But I always choose where I buy my phones from by the person behind the counter. One word, CUTE. And this one guy until today still remembers the phones i've bought from him! I've recently discovered this little magazine shop on the top floor that sells discounted outdated magazines. But outdated by only one month. And the magazines are in crisp condition with no black censormarks. And their Archie Comics are dirt cheap. Another small fortune spent there everytime I go.

Sungei Wang is also the only place I know that still has Svenson's. I love Svenson's for their EARTHQUAKE! Oh how i crave that mountain of ice cream! And DVDs are best bought at that little spot next to Bata's on the first floor. They've got a good selection and crystal clear quality. Another thing I love about Sungei Wang is the music!! Extreme POP! From Pussycat Dolls, to Christina to anyone sexy and female. The last time I was there, every shop I went to was playing either Don't Cha or Buttons or Ain't No Other Man. It was like a mini catwalk as you tried on your clothes and parade in front of the mirror. Awhile ago, I'd insist to my sis that we'd only enter stores that played Britney songs, stores that had quality. Of course, back then, Britney was huge so this meant every other store :)

I sometimes dread going to Sungei Wang cos I normally come back after having spent a fortune big enough to feed a small village in Africa for a few days. I feel guilty for a few minutes but then hey.. I'm worth it. Sungei Wang ain't just about shopping for clothes, it's about bumping in to people and people watching and learning from other people. It's about discovering new things. It's about feeling new emotions. It's truly KL in a KL sense.

I love Sungei Wang for it's shopping, it's culture, it's inspiration, it's passion. It's truly an icon in the KL scene and i don't think KL would be the same without it. So people, let's cherish our institutions for what they have given us and be thankful that they are part of our lives.

say you'll be there

Last Friday, my friend Mr.Fur asked me out to a new club. The club's name was The Laundry. And I guess you can already see where this is going..

Fur: Babe, wanna hang out tonight?
Me: Depends.. Where we going?
Fur: Well, the girls wanna go to the laundry and I thought i'd join them.
Me: Laundry? Darling.. Why on earth would I want to follow them to pick up their clothes? It's really not my thing.
Fur: But..
Me: And seriously fool, you need to think of better things to do on a Friday night than follow a bunch of girls to go get their laundry. It so not happening.

At this point, he burst out laughing. And I got angry.

Me: What's so funny?
Fur: You! You're funny!

Then and only then did I realize my faux pas. I could have died. I could feel the blood rushing to the surface of my face. Thank God, this was a private conversation and not some place public. But Mr.Fur had a good laugh and so did everyone else when I told them.

showstopper

I just couldn't resist this. Thought I'd add some eye candy to my blog. This special entries will be called showstoppers. Enjoy.. I like the nature theme especially the big gnarly tree. Something about trees always makes me feel good.

hot stuff

Surfing thru the Internet, I found this amazing website. It's all about water!! Not your oceanic water but your everyday drinking water. Who would have thought? And it's such a cool website. Very cool designs and funky flash. Check it out and be amazed by the power of water. I just don't get it how some people don't like to drink water. I find it sinful!! Water is what pumps you and gives you your essence. Here it is people, the link to the cool website WATER.

money money money

Yesterday, I found a wallet. I was the last person to disembark from the bus after gathering all my belongings and walking out, i caught a glimpse of the black wallet. I picked it up and looked around but by then everyone had sleepily gone off. So I took it home with me. No way was I gonna give it to bus operators and tell them I found it. It's not that I don't trust them, it's just I trust myself more.

Guess what? There were 2 credit cards, 800 in cash, numerous ATM cards and the usual wallet stuff.. IC, driving licence, etc. But no way of me contacting the fella. By then it was already 2am so I couldn't call up the banks either. Mum suggested the police station. I thought, I don't think so. Like I said before, I trust myself more.

Woke up today and called the first bank. They told me they'd cancel the credit card and the ATM card but they couldn't give me his contact number. Instead, they suggested handing it over to the police station. Yea.. right. Called the second bank, same thing. I was beginning to wonder, why hadn't this fella cancel all his cards yet? Maybe he has other priorities...

Frustrated, i looked thru his wallet again and found a Membership card to some spa. It's a long shot but i tried it anyway. Called them up, explained the situation. The woman on the other line who was very polite and touched at what I was trying to do managed to find me his number. She told me, "Most people today would not have even bothered to do what you're doing You're very nice." I went, "There's no other option. This is what I have to do".

I called him up and he was head over heels gushing out words of gratitude and compliments. Amazingly, he was nearby. So in half an hour he was at my doorstep with another friend of his and they took turns shaking my hand and thanking me and then wanted to offer me money as a reward. I'm like "hello?! Do i like like a freakin money whore?" Of course, I politely declined saying that he needed to be more careful with his wallet. There ain't too many beautiful people in the world today.

What bothered me most about this whole episode was the fact that he had given up hope of ever seeing his wallet again. Surely, we still need to have hope in the good of people. Seriously, I believe there are wonderfully good people out there. Not everyone is bad and couldn't be bothered. And people need to believe in the each other again. Not everyone wants to pick your pocket. Not everyone wants to take your handphones. I remember when my handphone was snatched from my hand afew years back, I just stood there on the road for a good 20 minutes hoping with tears in my eyes, that it was all a joke and the person would return to the spot and give me back my phone. Either that, or I was just mortified.

It's sad but the world is going in the direction of money. But it's nice to know that there are still people who will go to great lengths to restore humanity's faith. Let's make a difference boys and girls. Make someone's day today.

unbreak my heart

I have a friend Ms.Grunge who is a classic Malaysian beauty. Fair, raven haired, petite. I got to know her thru Ms.HardCore who is the exact opposite of Ms. Grunge. But don't get me wrong, Ms.HardCore is quite the stunner too. So anyway, I got to know Ms.Grunge well and grew to love her and over the years we grew apart but kept in touch thru smses and the occasional accidental bumps at shopping malls and restaurants and piercing parlours ;)

Now, Ms.Grunge has been seeing and has gotten engaged to this guy whom we shall call Mr.Hotshot for about 6 years. More than half a decade. That's quite a commitment if you ask me. Hotshot is a gorgeous guy. If he wasn't straight, I would have made a play for him a long time ago but in respects to Ms.Grunge I haven't.

As they say in fairy tales, all good things cannot run well. And this engagement was called off 2 days ago by Mr.Hotshot. Apparently, he has fallen out of love with her and is now seeing someone else. In fact, he had been seeing this person for about a month already. And guess what he told Ms.Grunge? "I think I want to marry her" What the bloody @*#&^!%$&#?

Ms.Grunge is in total shock. I don't she ever saw this coming but she did have her doubts over his sincerity. Mr.Hotshot has alot of close and not so close girlfriends and he never introduces Ms.Grunge to any of them. How weird is that? I'm not sure what Ms.Grunge is doing at this very moment but last I heard she was bawling her eyes out crying. She gave 6 years of her life to this fool with hopes that they will spend their lives together and now this little tramp of a girl comes in and destroys her foundation. But you see this is from Ms.Grunge's point of view.

Mr.Hotshot, I guess you can say had a change of heart. Or maybe he just got cold feet. Or maybe he just fell out of love. Whichever but he is a shitty prick for not making up his mind in the first place. And Ms.Tramp, well... I don't know what to say about her. I've been in her position. I've broken up other people's relationships. Sometimes, i see it as triumphant. Sometimes i see it as the spoils of war. And sometimes, i don't even plan it. This things just happen. I don't think there is anyone to blame. People change. Destiny changes. We can never hold on to a future we never have. I must admit I hated this Ms.Tramp person for doing what she did to Ms.Grunge but i can't say i totally blame her cos love will run it's course no matter what. But of course, the drama doesn't end there. I just found out that i know who this Ms. Tramp is . She's a close friend of mine!!!!!! Oh the horror! The shame! The scandal!! And what a small world!

So what am I to do? I am caught in this war where i love both the champions and lust over the prize they are fighting for. It is ridiculous. But i think everybody just needs to come to terms with what has happened and move on. We cannot hold on to the past or we'll never embrace the future. Or can we fight for something we believe in no matter how much tears we shed and how much energy we use?

To Ms.Grunge, you have my hand to hold no matter what you choose to do.
To Ms.Tramp, I hope you know what you are doing.
To Ms.Hardcore, the drama never ends does it. It's been a bitch of a year ;)

superstar

Recently I was selected to be part of a tv commercial for the company I work for. Before this, it was all print jobs but now actual living colour. The people I work for wants to go all out in advertising and want to promote publicity anywhere and anyway they can. This commerical is called Amazing xxx.

So anyway, my role call was at 5am. This meant I had to be up at 2.30am. And who on earth wakes up at 2.30?! I was already cursing. It was something that I would be doing for the rest of the day. My make up was done in 15 minutes. It could have been shorter since I don't really need all this makeup but the guy who was doing me thought i needed plumper lips. So.. My motto is never to mess with perfection. And so from 5am to 1.30pm, i sat and waited for my scene to be shot. That's right. 8 hours of my life that I would never get back. I knew this would happen. Since when were shoots ever on time? But I am professional. So i waited and never complained. The best part, I did not even know what I was supposed to do for my scene. So I had no chance to rehearse.

When my turn came, I found out to my horror that I had to conduct games with little children!! OHMYGOD!! I had to pretend to like children and smile for all I was worth. This was definitely karma biting back at me. I was like damn. Everyone of my friends who got selected for the commercial had easy roles. Just walking by with their trolley bags, or group poses, or just mingling with passengers. But ME?! Noooooo.. MINE had to be with children, singing and dancing. Lord. Have mercy on my soul.

After about 5 or 6 takes. I was done. Thank God no more kids. No more singing. No more fake smiles. It was a test of my strength. God knows how much of the footage would actually be used. Probably just about 5 seconds worth. I was congratulated on a job well done. I said goodbye. And left. Tired. Thank God for makeup otherwise the bags and dark circles on my eyes would have been screaming for attention. So, people. Look for me on a tv near you soon. And please, i don't do autographs.

beautiful

I was having a conversation with Paris Hilton the other day about being hot and sexy and turning people on. We agreed that we can't help being who we are. We were given these hot looks and we just flaunt what we have. Most of the time without even trying. Alot of you reading this can get where I'm coming from and for those of you who don't, well..

Some of us are born to make heads turn no matter what we do or how oogly we try to look. People still look at us. It's the aura we present. Personally, when I hit the gym, i do not look like the star I am when I'm out. With my hair ungelled and my clothes so loose and ugh but for some reason, i still get hit on from both sexes. Why? Paris says it's about the confidence you bring to a room. People feel it and are immediately attracted to it. But I tend to disagree on it somewaht. Sometimes, being gorgeous and confident can be intimidating to other people. Immediately you are branded a snob and shallow just becos the other people do not dare talk to you. They assume you must be highly pretentious becos of how u look.

Paris has this to say..

Everybody’s looking at me
But it’s alright I like attention
The clubs not hot until I walk through
They stop and stare and watch me move
Like damn I like that
I’m sexy and you know it

And it's true. I like the attention I get. And I'm not afraid to admit it. Most people get nervous when people stare or look at them. Not me. I get nervous when people don't look. I'm like, "WAIT a minute.. Something's not right here."

Paris added..

Girls and boys are looking at me
I can’t blame them ‘cause I’m sexy
Don’t care who's watching me
I do just what I want
Just cause i dance with you
Don’t mean your gettin some

True. Just bcause I'm paying you a little attention, don't mean you're getting lucky. Everyone can identify with this right? But what I'm trying to say is.. It's not easy being beautiful. You have a certain expectation to live up to. And the public is very keen on bringing you down on the slightest mistake you do becos you are constantly in the spotlight. Again, alot of you can identify with me.

But sometimes, it does get tiring to dress up and go out all the time and the truly beautiful know that you are beautiful even with hair down and you are wearing rags. I have on few occassions gone out of my house in my tartiest tank tops and slinky shorts and unruly hair to grab a quick ice cream or magazine. But somehow or rather, i always bump into people i know. People whom i do not want to be seen wearing what i'm wearing! And i always curse myself! But it's the law of the jungle. So i just rejoice in knowing that no matter how unpretty i may look, I still look better than average. Paris couldn't agree more.

Okay.. beautiful people. Til the next post!

rock the boat

Okay.. Honestly I am quite sick of all this thrash talk about TomKat's lil baby girl. It used to be fun in the beginning when people were speculating about whether Katie was really pregnant and whether it was all a publicity stunt AND Lord knows I was one of them who helped fuel the fires that were burning Tom's image. I got really sick and tired of him after his Oprah stunt and after watching MI3, I realized this dude is waaaaaaaay over rated. Sure, he's gorgeous and all but homeboy needs to get a reality check. Notice how his roles are all powerful I AM MAN kind of roles. This is to counteract his lack of height ;)

And then of course, Suri was born and the whole Scientiology thing got blown out of proportions. From all the rules and regulations to the damn weird rituals. I mean, seriously Tom.. eating the placenta? The press and the public just went mad with all these freakiness. And it seriously didn't help that no one saw Suri for the first few months. And her existence was even questioned. Again, I am guilty of that.

But today, photos of her have been published and I must admit, she is one cute baby. Cute lil girl. So adorable. Come now disbelievers, and leave the fact that she has Tom Cruise for a father and look at that cute cherub face. So innocent and just calling you to hold her. Yea.. so Suri does exist and whether or not Tom and Kat is her parents does not matter. Because we all know he prefers his partners slightly manly. Check her out.

another year older

I am officially 24 years old!!

Saying it loud and saying it proud!! Never before have i disclosed my age with so much gusto but this time, this year, I've decided my life's too precious to be secrective and ashamed. I am unashamed! I am 24!!

To celebrate it, I had a small get-together in Zouk the other night. Just a few of my closest friends and people I enjoy being with to help me celebrate me turning another year older. And it was a BLAST!!

Such an awesome night dancing and drinking! And the fact that it was also MamboJumbo night, I was in heaven!! Madonna, Kylie, Janet, Justin, Whitney, everyone was there with me! Such a blast! By midnight, I was a goner. Piss drunk. Couldn't feel my legs, kept on falling on people, and i swear i could not feel the area above my eyes. It was like emptiness there.

But it was a good feeling. Laughing and letting go and dancing up a storm. And of course, i did a cardinal sin. I mixed my drinks. And it really didn't help that most of it, i was drinking neat. But am quite proud of the fact that i didn't throw up. The music was really good. All music I grew up with and the company that night was brilliant. All people I love and cherish.

Seriously such a fun night. Of course, fun cannot come without a little bit of drama ;) Kisses, puking, shameless flirting. All part and parcel of fun. The hangover the next day was amazingly BAD!! Head was punding and pounding. It was worth it though. Had such a fun loving time. Really wished my other heartbeat who is somewhere in Australia was there to celebrate with me too.

Thank you all who came. Thank you all for the hugs and kisses. You rock my world. Here's a little post birthday shoot. The photographer shall remain a mystery :)

to love u more

Yesterday, I did a flight to a certain holiday destination. My stewardess friend was very keen on showing me her new prospect who was gonna be on this flight. She met him awhile ago when he was going to this holiday destination and they hit it off. He told her he would be coming back on last night's flight.

And she went on describing him and telling how she thinks he might be the one and I was happy for her. And I was looking forward to catching a glimpse of this guy. But during boarding things got so hectic and chaotic, that I seriously had to focus myself on my duties. And focus on all the hot guys that were boarding.

Then after service, she told me his seat number, and i went to casually have a look. My heart did a triple jump when he looked up and smiled at me. He was hot. Scruffy, lean, tanned. Cute. And familiar. Then it hit me. I slept with this guy about a year ago. The same time the realization hit me, it hit him too. Cos his smile changed into a shallow grin. I winked at him and walked off.

Throughout the 3 hours flight, my stewardess friend kept on talking to him and asked me to join them in conversation. And MR.HotBod was smiling and gesturing me to join them. And I kept asking myself, what is this guy's game? Was he genuinely interested in her? Of course, i've accepted the fact that I was nothing but a one night stand but here he was giving her all his charm. Did he turn straight?

She came to the back and asked me what i thought of him. I wanted to say "he's hot. he's cute. I approve. And oh by the way, i slept with him." But I couldn't. Her eyes were so Bambi like and full of hope. So instead i said, "Not bad. but i think u can do better". To which she smiled and told me he would have to do for now. Then Mr.HotBod comes to the back and charmingly slips himself into our convrsation. And I must admit it was nice talking to him. She did notice however that I couldn't stop touching him thru out the conversation. And it's true. My hand was in his chest, his shoulder, his belt. Dirty me. But that was it. Like any normal sane person, i cannot resist touching beautiful things. At the end of the flight, she told me she was gonna send him to his hotel. I told her to be a good girl and not stay over. She told me she wouldn't. And I trust her.

But wait! The drama doesn't end there. He slipped me his business card on the way out! What the crap?! I threw it of course. Stupid fella. If this had happened a few months ago, i definitely would have slept with him again. But no more.

I so want to tell her but the thought of seeing her face and hope destroyed would not be a happy thing. Besides, what was he thinking? Hopeless guy. I don't get all this weird men. And believe you me, this is not the first time. Most of the time, I just keep my mouth shut when the girls insist that their guy is straight. Better to dream and fly than to crash.

there are worst things i could do

This fits me to a T. The first time I heard it, i really cried and cried. It touched and affected me cos i could relate to it and her character. I told myself, this song is about me. And even after years, it still affects me. Just thought I'd share this.

There are worst things i could do

Than go with a boy, or two

Even though the neighbourhood thinks im trashy and no good

I suppose it could be true

But there are worst things i could do

I could flirt with all the guys

Smile at them and bat my eyes

Press against them when we dance

Make them think they stand a chance

Then refuse to see it through

That's a thing id never do

I could stay home every night

Wait around for Mister Right

Take cold showers every day

And throw my life away

On a dream that wont come true

I could hurt someone like me

Out of spite or jealousy

I dont steal and i dont lie

But i can feel and I can cry

A fact ill bet you never knew

But to cry in front of you..

Thats the worst thing i could do.

perhaps perhaps

Hi all.

How I've missed doing this. How I've missed the passion that used to drive me. It's weird. For the past few weeks, I have been under the covers of sorrow. Being hugged by depression. And it seemed like I could never come back from that dark place I spiralled into. Everything went wrong. It was one thing after another. Lady Karma kept on bitch slapping me over and over. It was insane. I was insane. I hated myself. I hated the world. I hated everything. It took me awhile but I'm slowly climbing back out into the spotlight that I belong.

I've decided that I cannot go back to that place. I needed to make drastic changes in my life. And I have. I'm gonna try to control that wild instrument I call my tongue. I'm gonna try and keep my nastiness to myself. I believe the world is nasty enough. All this negativity ain't doing anybody any good.

And if Paris Hilton can do it, why can't I? No.. I'm not coming out with my own music album. I've decided to become celibate. At least for awhile. I think that part of my life has become almost too easy and after sleeping with i think almost 1000 men (ok.. maybe not 1000, more like 800 something give or take.. ) and that's only counting all the ones I remember! So i'm giving it a whirl. It's been 2 weeks thus far and I'm doing pretty good. I don't miss it all that much actually. But it's a challenge keeping myself in my pants and my lips to myself.

So, yes people of the world, i'm coming back out. With a different light. Thanks to all the stars who kept shining by me esp PY and Nalini.

Always shining!

come on over

Was surfing the other day and came across this really cool site. I was attracted to this couch. And was I amazed to discover it's function! Read for yourself.

"Forget couples counseling to tell you you're drifting apart from your lover. A UK designer has come up with a concept that’s illuminating relationships from their living rooms. This sofa is embedded with patterned lights which react to seating arrangements. As a couple sit apart on the sofa, they are surprised when a cold blue pattern begins to grow around them signifying their distance apart from each other. With the pattern changing in relation to weight and proximity, as they move towards each other warm pink petals begin to form representing their closeness. Using light emitting (Electroluminescent) technology in conjunction with trigger sensitive materials, the pattern is displayed in relation to where a person is sitting. The petals will randomly illuminate around your body and disappear when you move to another spot, meaning an ever evolving and changing pattern display occurs. With the thoughtful and playful development of the pattern, the wonderment of where the pattern will lead adds to the experience of using the sofa. Contact us if you require contact info on the designer. "

feelin so good

I found this site thru another blog and i must admit i die laughing everytime i surf this site. It is damn sarcastic and witty. Ha.. ha.. Using animals to portray lifestyles. The comic strips are dry and very in-ur-face. Ha..ha.. Do check it out-> mr gisby's petshop

these boots are made for walkin..

Since Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey decided to call it quits and go their own way, the tabloids and mtv news have been jammed daily with the ups and downs of these 2 former lovebirds. Who their dating, how they miss each other but don't wanna admit it, whose fault is it, how they're coping with it. Enough already on the past. Move on to the future. They've both come out with new singles. So let us look at the strength of their first singles. Nick's What's Left Of Me versus Jessica's A Public Affair. Now tell me, who is crying and who is rejoicing? Stupid Nick is still caught up on the whole deal and is milking out sympathy whereas Jessica is stepping out with the girls and celebrating. And that ladies and gentlemen is what everyone should be doing after a break up. No use crying over spilt milk. Celebrate your freedom. Celebrate yourself. Nick's is a heartbreaking ballad and Jessica's is a breezy groovy dance tune. Go Jessica!

I love Jessica's video. She has Christina Applegate and Millian, Eva Longoria and Ryan Seacrest in it. In the beginning when they talk about fame. Hilarious!

Jessica: I wanna be so famous, everytime i fall in love somebody does a special about it.
Christina Millian: I wanna be so famous that even my ex boyfriends become famous.
Christina Applegate: I wanna be so famous that I have to have my babies in Africa.
Eva: I wanna be so famous that I'm the most downloaded person on the Internet.
Jessica: I wanna be more famous than the Internet.

Ha..ha.. Classic Jessica!!

water water everywhere

Been meaning to post this for some time but kept getting side tracked. I think Pirates Of the Caribbeans: Dead Man's Chest is just WOW. Real summer popcorn flick! Had a good time watching it. My mate wrote a review on it a her blog. Here's the link honeystar's pirates. Orlando is of course just hot hot hot in this movie. And the fight scenes were stunning! Especially when Capt Jack, William and the man-formerly-known-as-Kommodor were fighting in that giant wheel thing. Stunning! The sea battles with the Kraken were visually stunning but abit fear inducing since I have a mortal fear of the deep blue.

My favourite scene was at the end when they all returned to Tia Dalma's shack to mourn the loss of the Captain. That was serene and freaky at the same time. All those people holding candles in the waters surrounded by the darkness of the swamp. It was just freaky. Gave me goosebumps watching the scene. Speaking of Tia Dalma. This woman stole the show! I love her! Her character! So weird and enchanting at the same time! And flirty despite her almost maniacal appearance. Love her. Let's hope she gets more screen time in part3.

If you haven't checked the website yet.. Go ahead. It's bloody wild.

i wanna be bad

This is a little indulgent..
Growing up I was never confused with who or what I was. I always knew. But it took awhile for me to present myself to the world cos I needed to be comfortable with myself first. I'm totally in love with myself and I am my own best friend. And I've always believed that you need to truly love yourself first before you can actually love someone else. That way, even when you are alone, you'll never be truly alone cos you always have yourself. I've always been inspired by movies, tv and music. Growing up, I was exposed to the media world as both my parents are media activists. As such, I am doing a tribute to my favourite iconic characters of the past. Icons that helped me in my lowliest hours. Helped inspire and crazify me. These are characters from tvs and movies and not real life people.


one
LUCY VAN PELT the peanuts gang
The original crabby girl. Lucy loves being bossy and loud and selfish! Her smiles and motives are anything but angelic. It's either her way or the highway. When it comes to compliments, Lucy only like receiving them. If at the rare occassion she is giving one, there's usually something devious behind it. Her often mad ramblings sometimes has meaning to it. Especially when she's at her doctor's booth or at Schroeder's piano comprehending love.

two
PIZAZZ the misfits
Nobody can wear that much of garish outifts and loud makeup and pull it off with style except Pizazz. The lead singer of The Misfits, she was the constant bubblegum in Jem's properly coifed pink hair. You can never keep her down and just when you wouldn't expect it, she and gang bursts out into songs with such campy titles Winning Is Everything, Takin It All, I Love A Scandal, Makin Mischief, Congratulations To Me.

three
ALEX FORREST fatal attraction
Hell had no fury like a woman scorned. All she wanted was to love and be loved but what happens? Crummy guy decides he doesn't want anything to do with her. Her anger and her efforts to destroy his life is quite inspiring. Using the word NUTS to describe her is an understatement. As a kid, that whole rabbit scene threw me off guard. I was like, this woman means business. And the final scenes where she goes berserk and slashes and slashes were awesome! Glenn Close really rocked this role.

four
MALEFICIENT sleeping beauty
The original Disney villain. Pure evil, imposing, gothic, terrying and powerful. I believe this is one villain that puts the other villains to shame. But I can understand her anger. First she doesn't get invited to a dinner party and then the good fairies discover a loophole in her curse. So from a matter of preserving her honor, it became an egoistic power trip to destroy all those that defy her. In her own words, "You poor simple fools, thinking you could defeat me, me! The mistress of all evil." And " Now shall you deal with me and all the powers of hell". Simply awesome.

five
URSULA the little mermaid
Oh how I love Ursula. She made being bad look fun. Ursula reminded me of a fallen socialite trying to climb back the social ladder. Overweight, over-rich, over-pampered, over-the-top society hostess gone mad, she is all flair, flamboyance, and theatricality mixed with a touch of con-artistry as someone once put. She is ruthless with a flair. She bounced, she jiggled, she sang, she pouted, she schemed. Her business proposal to lure Ariel into her trap is such a joy to watch. When she finally lost it and became all big and terrifying, she looked good doing evil. Nothing stands in her way to become ruler of what she wants. All Hail Queen Ursula.

six
NICOLE JULIAN popular
When this show was on, I used to wait and anticipate each episode every week just for the satisfaction of seeing Nicole in action. Nicole Julian wrecked terror wherever she was and to whoever she met. Even her bestest friend was sometimes the victim of her vicious plots. Most of the time her ideas and schemes were for the betterment of her social status. To make her all powerful and terrifying. Often twisted and shocking, her plans are merely a hidden call for attention. Becos underneath that ice cold exterior, lies a warm warm heart which was displayed in a few episodes. And just when everybody fell in love with the good Nicole, the bad Nicole popped back up proving to the world that you cannot keep a good bad girl down. I wanted to worship at her throne after each episode. And if you think about it, Popular was kinda of a campy show. With all the usual soap drama and comedies thrown in . It was happy hour at its best.

seven
KATHRYN MERTEUIL cruel intentions
The beautiful Kathryn. How she ruled my heart at one point. People close to me know that I was in love with her the moment she appeared on screen. This is the epitome of what bitch is. Outside goodie, inside baddie. Her coke filled crucifix, her insane plot to destroy those around her, her using others around her, her wanting to sleep with her step-brother, so delicious!! I love this woman! At the end, when she was exposed for what she really is and tears streamed down her cheek, I had tears in my eyes too. I was rooting for her the whole time and I felt what she was feeling. To have her entire world crumble in a single moment. A world she worked hard to build and preserve. It was a sad ending. Who cares if Sebastien died? Stupid fella fell in love. He had it coming. But Kathryn ruled. She knew what she had to do to be on top.

truly, madly, deeply

Following in the footsteps of Elton John and marrying his gay other half is Darren Hayes. Yes! Darren Hayes formerly of massive Aussie duo Savage Garden. I must say I am not amazed at the news. I always had my suspicion especially when he went solo and his videos began getting abit gay vibey. And the guy was even married at one point! This just goes to show you can never judge a person at all. You think you know a person, and then BOOM your whole world changes when the person reveals something shocking. .

There are many examples in life that I can give but I'll stick to one. Back in college, there used to be a guy who was considered the Brandon Walsh of my college. Alot of girls were drooling for him and he kept this mysterious aura about him. No one suspected a thing and if I recall correctly, there was even a girlfriend and all. But now, five years down the line, Mr. Brandon Walsh is openly gay and happily in love with his boyfriend! Much to the shock and disbelievement of girls and guys alike. Ha..ha.. I still laugh thinking about this one.

I have another friend Ms. High Maintanence whose man of 2 years left her for another man. She certainly didn't see that coming. I've had my share of encounters with straight men too or men whom society perceived were straight. It's a pity that these people have to live in the closet and not know the kind of liberation that comes with coming out.

Ladies, hold on to your men cos you never know. Especially if their gorgeously handsome. They might just turn at the drop of a cologne-laced hankerchief. Think BrokeBack Mountain. And alot of men will never admit it but they do think about it.

Ok.. back to Darren Hayes. I quote "On June 19th 2006 I married my boyfriend of two years, Richard, in a Civil Partnership ceremony in London. I can honestly say it was the happiest day of my life. I feel lucky to live in an era where my relationship can be considered legally legitimate and I commend the UK Government for embracing the very basic Civil Liberty."

Congratulations Darren and Richard.

deja vu

I totally did not expect the video to this song to look like this. Beyonce running thru the fields, by the lake, huh? It's very southwestern back in the day. It starts out nice with a good shot of her nude back. Nothing to make to shout about. It didn't impact me like when I first saw CRAZY IN LOVE. But the part in this video towards the end where Beyonce goes all mad and trance-like and starts doing this semi African war dance is an eye opener. Especially in that horrific skirt. What was she thinking? She looks good in most of the scenes tho. All in all, good song. Video.. Can be better.