Wednesday, January 27, 2010

walking on sunshine

Have you ever had one of those days that everything anyone does or doesn't do just irritates you? I don't know what gets me into these moods but I hate it cos it makes me become such a bitter person. And my total shiny outlook on life becomes this dark negative energy that just vibes onto everyone around me.

For instance, I passed this lady on the way to the post office yesterday and out of the blue she just smiles at me. Normally, I'd smile back but this time I just scowled at her. I thought to myself, what's her problem? Does she have some disorder that makes her want to smile to everyone she passes by. And then I passed another lady who didn't smile at me and I thought to myself 'what's that bitch's problem?' Would it kill her to smile?

Do you see the problem?

It's worst if I'm at work cos I'll run into SO MANY people and it is such a challenge holding my mouth shut and keeping my thoughts to myself. And as we all know, I rarely keep my thoughts to myself ;)

But I do know what instantly puts me into a good mood. Retail therapy. Always. Anywhere. Anytime.

And boy did I get alot of therapy yesterday! Spent a small fortune on books, a bag, toiletries, clothes and of course dinner ;)

Went to bed feeling on top of the world.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

meet me halfway


It is utterly hard for me to believe that it is already the middle of January of 2010. I can still remember it being New Year's Day! Looking back at 2009, I realized I've accomplished alot and failed to accomplish a few things.

2009 was a year of super-indulgence for me. I gained so much weight, I did not color my hair (not even a patch of it), drank like a fish, kissed like a fool and spend money like it was confetti!

Am more than determined to get my life and myself back into control this year. Am gonna begin with a whole new lifestyle (truth be told, I've had a few false starts already), am gonna make myself save more money and am gonna make myself enjoy the simpler things in life.

In 2009, I learned that I am capable of tears. And that I am capable of having mental breakdowns. A very close friend lost his mum in 2009 and it broke my heart to see him so shattered. And it broke me down and made me become somebody I never knew I could become.

Another close friend got married and I got to play the best man to her wedding (my fourth role as best man). I remember being utterly nervous when I had to make my speech. I was practically shaking. But a few glasses of wine soon calmed me down.

In 2009, I finally stepped foot in Phuket with my soulmates and had a whirlwind tour of the beach paradise. I also made a return trip to Bali with a bunch of fabulous people and we rocked Bali to her knees!

One of my biggest dreams came true in 2009, I BUNGY JUMPED!! Flew right off and screamed all the way down!!! Amazingly mental! I remember thinking to myself, why oh why was I doing this, but life's too short to ponder on the questions. And off I went ;) I also crossed white water rafting off my to do list. And who can forget paint-ball with my cousins! Never again ;p

Two of the most extravagant buys of 2009 were my iPhone and my SonyVaio laptop. Both bought in the same month killing the economy of my life in a single unfolding of my wallet. But I have no regrets and both devices have brought me so much pleasure and fun.

My birthday in 2009 was celebrated with such madness of insanity that those who attended it are still talking about it until today ;) And I'll never forget the hangover of that night for as long as I'll live.

In 2009, I also got to see my goddess perform LIVE in front of me thanks to a very dear friend of mine who lives in Melbourne. I had goosebumps through-out the concert and told myself that life will never be the same for me.

And in 2009, I got to see, smell and feel LONDON. A life-long dream come true. I remember, as I was driving thru London, i got teary eyed looking at all the places that I've only read and dreamed about. Aaaahh..

2009 was a good year. But it's now time to officially close that chapter and welcome a whole new chapter. Am looking forward to this year. I'm gonna rediscover the person I was and take up new challenges. I'm determined to make the best of what is given to me. And I think everyone should too.

Happy New Year!

p/s: The pic above is a collage of all the wonderful events that took place in 2009.


Wednesday, January 13, 2010

three words

It was those three words that saved my life..