caught in the moment

This is a true paparazzi snap. Don't you think? I having so much fun last weekend that I didn't even realize there were cameras around. And look where my photo ended up?

But truth is, I LOVE this picture. You can see every detail of my gorgeous shirt. You can see all the features of my facial structure. And the chain I was wearing is so perfectly draped on my chest. My hair all done up and gravity defying. And the bottle so clear and poised. It's a good shot. I like it. Which is why I agreed to it being used. It's a great shot. Congratulations to Ayu who took it. It's easy to get good shots when you have a beautiful subject ;)

I totally can see how celebrities can get caught up in the moment and then having their pics turn up in the local tabloids or internet. But I'm very happy with this shot so no complains from me.

Story behind the photo is... It was a friend's birthday. Bottles after bottles were opened and I think this was like the last bottle left so there was competition going on to see who could finish it or something like that or who could swallow for the longest time. Mine was exactly ten seconds. Mind you, I was already extreme tipsy by that time, and I really didn't want to down the bottle NEAT but I thought what the heck? I'm only young once. So i swallowed as much as i could for ten seconds before giving it up. AND did i burn!! My teeth, my gums, every cavity in my mouth was on fire!! And my throat was screaming for help! Whatever germs were in my mouth that night, definitely did not survive. And I am proud to say, I did not throw up altho I came very close to but I didn't.

So here's to the next party! And to the paparazzi all around the world!

sittin up in my room

This weekend, I finally managed to repaint my room. And I'm sharing the results. It took 2 whole days. To move out everything and then do the preliminary stuff, and then mix the paints, and then actually start painting. Then move everything back in. Backbreaking! But it's a change of colour and scene so I'm glad.

And not to mention, in the midst of all this, I still managed to find the energy and time to go clubbing on Saturday. Came back at 6am. Was in church at 10am. Then back to doing up my room immediately after that. Haven't slept since.

I wanted to do a very disco-ey effect but I decided in the end, the cost would be ridiculous and it would be too time consuming. But this is good enough. The colour is cooling and soothing.

God knows how long this colour scheme will stick with me. Stay tuned for more episodes of Terry's DIY workshop.

i think we're alone now

A few days ago, my mum was sitting outside in the porch under the mango tree, cutting fruits for tea enjoying the breeze. She's been under alot of stress lately and she always finds it a relief to be under the tree.

Okay, so you know how everyone in Bangsar puts a garbage can outside their house to guard their special parking spot? Well, my household is no different. My parents actually take turns staying up to see who had dared to remove the garbage cans and park their unsightly cars on our spot and then of course they'll unleash a whole mess on the criminal regarding how they have no manners and no courtesy blah blah blah.

So on this particular day, mum was actually killing two birds with one stone. She was enjoying the cool breeze and was waiting to see which fool had parked his car at our spot.

I received this sms from her later in the day.

"I did not know how stressed out I am til this incident. Just now this chinese pig (he actually looks like one) moved his van from our parking space dragging our dustbin with it and he had the nerve to laugh. So i went outside to put it back. The van stopped cos the cover got stuck under the van. The ugly pig had the nerve to ask me what? So I gave it back to him. All of a sudden, the ugly pig rushes back into his van with a horror look on his face. Only then I realize I was still holding the knife in my hand! So there"

So there you have it ladies and gentlemen, do not mess with my Mama. She'll shred you. God knows what the fella must be thinking. I know for sure he'll never darken our parking spot again.

this kiss

I came across this a few weeks back and have been meaning to share it with you guys but kept on procastinating. But here I go. LoveFilm.com listed the "Top 10 Best Big Screen Kisses EVER" online the other day and the "Brokeback Mountain" reunion kiss between Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal was named the #1 best screen kiss of all time!

Here is the full list from LoveFilm.com.

1. Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger in "Brokeback Mountain"
2. Audrey Hepburn and George Peppard in "Breakfast at Tiffany’s"
3. Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie in "Mr. and Mrs. Smith"
4. Clark Gable and Vivien Leigh in "Gone With The Wind"
5. Sarah Michelle Gellar and Selma Blair in "Cruel Intentions"
6. Deborah Kerr and Burt Lancaster in "From Here To Eternity"
7. Al Pacino and John Cazale in "Godfather"
8. Colin Firth and Renee Zellweger in "Bridget Jones’ Diary"
9. Toby Maguire and Kirsten Dunst in "Spiderman"
10. Patrick Swayze and Jennifer Grey in "Dirty Dancing"

I'm actually not surprised with the results. That kiss has won them awards and a lot of movie magazines and websites have even proclaimed it as the best kiss ever. And it's true. You've never seen so much passion. Alot of my girlfriends agree too. One even went as far as to say she has never seen a straight couple kiss with so much passion before. So kudos to the boys. I like the #9 spot too. That whole upside down kiss thing was totally out of this world!! Very superhero!! And who can forget SMG and Selma's kiss in Cruel Intentions?! Totally scandalous.

Happy kissing!

freedom

This weekend was supposed to be a weekend full of dancing and merry making. I had plans for Friday night, Saturday night and even Sunday night! All involving dancefloors, shots of alcohol, beautiful people and tons of glamor. BUT i only made it to Friday night. After a hard night of partying, I woke up on Saturday with an unusually high body temperature. In fact, it felt like i was on fire. And getting out from bed was like walking through a glass door. I was thinking to myself, this is a really bad hangover. An hour later, i realized it was not hangover. I was really sick. By then, i was coughing, sneezing, wheezing, in extreme pain. My whole body felt raw. Moving was too painful and despite my fever, I was constantly freezing!! I bet i was the only person in this tropical heat who was wrapped up in a blanket.

The doctor gave me tons of medication with so much instructions. This is for morning, this is for night, this is for after meals, this is for before meals, this is that, this is this. Madness.. By nightfall, I was feeling close at death's door. When I was a kid, I used to grab a pen and paper and start writing out my will whenever I felt sickly. Mum would always call me a drama queen. Yes ladies and gentlemen, Mum freely uses the word queen on me ;) But I always say better be safe than sorry.

On Sunday, i had lost all taste sensation in my mouth. My tongue felt like concrete. It was a bad feeling. Felt like rubbing cili padi on it to awaken the dulled tastebuds. The medication i was taking was really working cos I was seriously drugged up on Sunday. Felt like i was in a daze the whole day. But today I'm all ok. Feeling much better. Just abit angry cos I wasted the weekend.

But it's ok.. There are more weekends to come ;)

it's all coming back to me

This is the most romantic definition of the term dejavu that i've ever heard. So i'm sharing it with you guys.

"It is most common in people under 20.I believe it is a jump in time, a brief connection to a previous lifetime. Toddlers often remember things from previous lifetimes when they see them. Deja vu is a momentary flash of memory of a previous lifetime. It happens so quickly that you don't have time to analize it. Something you see sparks this flash of memory of a previous life lived. Because the concious brain cannot analize it because it happens so fast and is connected to a time before your brain was even born, it is interpreted as a memory of having "done this before." It is really your SOUL remembering that it was alive in a time before this.Others will argue that it is a glitch in the wiring of the brain. But when it happens, you know inside it is real.
It is a window into a time before this time, when your soul was inside a different body. Your brain interprets this the only way it knows how, as a memory of "I've done this before." I believe it may indicate that here is an important life lesson coming up that up you lived through before and did not fully pass or understand so get ready, here comes the same test again."

Personally, when I have a moment of dejavu, it just freaks me out cos my hair stands on it's end and i get a slight electric impulse running thru my body. Like something's not right here. But it's a nice feeling.

What do you think?

bad day

Two days ago, my world came tumbling down. And i was not prepared for it. Cos everything was going so well. And flowers were singing to me and the sun was smiling for me and suddenly BOOM BOOM BOOM. Darkness enveloped everything in the Kingdom Of Terence.

It started as a normal Tuesday morning. Went to work with a healthy mind. Was telling myself, today will be a good nice flight. Then discovered I was flying with one of the most ruthless Commanders in the company. He was known far and wide for his demandingness and arrogance. Told myself, it's ok. I'm a professional, i can do this. And it certainly didn't help that he and I had our little differences in the past and didn't quite get along. Briefed my crew to be prepared for any sudden change of moods and if i seem agitated thru out the flight, please bear with me. Throughout the first 2 sectors, everything was good. We were even earlier than expected. Then enroute to our second destination, we discovered we had mistakenly left a guest at the gate. I don't know why, but we turned back. Thankfully we were still on ground. I was called into the cockpit and I braced myself for the coming tirade.

Once back at the terminal, opened the door, brought in the left behind guest when all of a sudden someone screamed! I turned my head in time to see someone collapsing and someone else grabbing on to that person. A woman had gone into epileptic fits. And her husband was shouting for help. I immediately responded. Shouted at my crew for backup and to page for a doctor. Grabbed hold of the woman who was now just shaking violently. Her husband had put his finger into her mouth to prevent her from choking on her tongue. I was scared ot death she would stop breathing and I really did not want to give her CPR altho if it came to that, i would but I really didn't want to. I decided the next best thing was to administer oxygen. Grabbing the nearest oxygen bottle, i turned it on and then i realize there was blood on her face. Where was the blood coming from?! From her hubby's finger. She had bit down on it. Oh.. the mayhem!!

Placed the oxygen mask on her face and thank GOD there was a doctor onboard who offered his help. An ambulance was already on the way and everything was beginning to get back to normal. We offloaded her and her husband and son. Keep it mind, that it decided to rain torrentially right then and we don't use aerobridges cos it's an open bay. So wet i became. After everything was settled down, closed the door and we took off. Had to interview the doctor and a few of the guest for record purposes. Halfway thru the flight, another passenger decided to rain on my parade and tried to smoke in the lavatory. Needless to say, he got screamed at and lectured in front of everyone by a very fuming me. Thank God, the alarm didn't go off. But it did about a half hour later for no apparent reason without anyone being in any of the lavatory. I tell you, God was really testing me that day. Got called into the cockpit, time and time again.

I was eager to the entire day behind me, so i got home, showered and just lay on my bed when my phone rang and guess what? One of my girl friend's husband called using her phone and asked me to stay away from his wife and to stop calling her. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK? I had half the mind to scream at him. Turns out, he thought i was having an affair with her becos of all the time she spends with me. And becos some of the messages i send to her begin with "my dear" or "dear," or "babe". My mind just went blank and I told myself, i cannot be dealing with this crap. I just told, whatever. And put the phone down. Normally I would have argued back and stood my ground but at that point in time, i was just fed up. It was like the whole world was conspiring against me.

The next day, i was still feeling the after effects of that horrific day. Felt so blue and I really didn't want to get up from bed. A close friend concluded that sometimes God gives you all the good things he can give you for a week or two and holds back all the bad things and then gives it to you all one shot to see how strong you are. I think it's true.

But whatever it is, I survived. Thank you for all the moral support i got. You guys are eternally blessed!! And the sun is shining again once again on the magical Land of Terence.

castles in the sky

The weather lately has been excruciatingly HOT!!! It is impossible to do anything without breaking into a sweat. No matter how many showers you take, the moment you step out of the shower, you just feel the heat. Mother Nature is truly not happy with us and she's really making us pay for it. Now I think 3 or 4 times before leaving the comforts of my house. Do i really wanna face the glare of the sunshine? Do i really wanna bake in this tropical heat? Do i really wanna mingle with other warm blooded fools in this sauna? Why can't it snow here and now when we really need it?

It wouldn't be so bad if I was stuck at some beach paradise. I wouldn't complain as i would be alf naked most of the time and I would be in the water. Who cares if i turn out to be dark as night? Aaahh... What i wouldn't give for a beach holiday right now?

Speaking of beaches, last year on my island tour 2006 in Perhentian, me and the girls made a sandcastle. I can gladly say there is a reason why I didn't become an architect or an interior designer. The pic above is proof. It's really a fantasy castle. It is my first sandcastle and most probably my last. But the time spent in Perhentian was enough for me to rejuvenate and come back with a new take on life. Truly my own castle in the sky.

i do

A few days before Valentine, a good friend of mine got married. I was so proud of her. She set a goal for herself and she got her man no matter what it took.

Her wedding ceremony was bathed in gold. And all of her good friends were there to help her and it made my heart glow with warmness to see everybody take on new roles to help make her wedding a good one. And it was a good one. Very grand. Altho being typical Malaysians, the guests only started arriving after 8.30 although i distinctively remembered the invitation saying guests arrival at 7.30!! By the time everything started rolling, I swear you could hear everyone's stomach rumbling over the music.

I've attached 2 pics taken after wedding. Julie is the third close friend of mine who tied the knot within the last 12 months. First it was Stef in May, then Lissa in December and now Julie. Everyone's getting married!! Are we all really growing up?

Congratulations Julie. I wish you all the best. Stay the girl I know you are and make me prooud to call you my friend ;)

nobody wants to be lonely

This is it people.

The Red Day is almost around the corner. And with it comes all the sickeningly sweet love notes, the diabetes enducing chocolates, the gag-me romantic movies, the whole enchilada. Cupid is everywhere these days. And my posse and I have noticed that a lot of hook ups tend to happen at this time of year. Especially from mid January onwards. Maybe it's unintentional. Maybe it isn't. All I know, it gives me goosebumps!

Personally, I've never celebrated V Day and I know alot of my ladies don't either. More power to us! Never saw the point. There should never be a specific day for us to celebrate love. Sure, maybe the day has it's merits in the beginning with St Valentine's helping out all those lonely soldiers blah blah blah but NOW it's a whole load of commercial crap!! Everywhere you go you see Cupid flying around, you see hearts, hearts and more hearts!! And you see red everywhere. Jason would definitely approve ;) Let the bloodshed begin!!!!

Always been a dream of mine, to drive around on V Day with water balloons and throw them at all the mushy couples by the streets who think they are doing themselves and their so called other halves a favour by being with each other on this so called Blessed Day from Eros. Well, let me do you a real favour by giving you a wake up call. SPLASH!

He's cheating on you!!
She was a man!!
He's married!!
She's got multiple STDs!!
He only wants your sex!!
She only wants your money!!
SPLASH!

Stupid lovebirds. Should be shot dead and mounted on the wall. Plus everything is so irritatingly expensive. Gives us normal folks such headaches to even go out although I try not to cause my gag reflex isn't so strong.

My beautiful friend Colloquio sent me some amazing photos that describe my feelings for this day. So I'm sharing with it with all my fellow haters out there ;)

This one really made me laugh!! Very fitting.



















If only someone had the guts to really send this out to their wife.





















This had me in tears!!!



















This is abit Fatal Attraction but cool!!




















And this one is the kind of romance I appreciatte. Very sweet.
















Happy Bloody Valentine's to you all!!

come clean

Can somebody please explain to me the definition of a relationship? I'm not talking about your brother-sister relationship or your friendship relationship but the lover relationship. Lately, being in a relationship has become so complicated and often over dramatic. Or does that only happen to me and my circle of friends? 6 out of 10 people I know who are in steady relationships are cheating with someone else. And of that 6 people, 3 of them have partners who are cheating on them too. And everyone thinks they are fooling each other but the truth is you're not fooling anybody honey.

Why is so hard to sustain a meaningful relationship? Is it the signs of the time? Could it be because we are surrounded by so much temptation and the idea of the forbidden fruit is constantly dangling in front of us? I don’t know.. I may be promiscuous. I may be a whore. But I still believe in the sanctity of marriage and of being in a true relationship. That’s why when I’m in one, I give it my all. Or at least, I try to.

We all want bigger, better, more beautiful things. So when a person comes along who can offer us this things, we naturally tend to gravitate towards this person. Regardless of whether we have a person of our own. And some people cheat without thinking twice. Some cheat thinking that it’s ok. Some cheat because there’s something missing in their relationship. Some are compulsive liars. Some cheat because they love the thrill. Some cheat because they are in a dead end relationship. There are a million and one reasons for a person to stray but do us all a favor and own up when you’re caught. Denying only makes it worst. And hurting a person who has loved you with all their might is downright unforgivable. I can forgive a one night stand but to have a whole other relationship with another person while being with me is just plain wrong. And shamefully, I am caught in this situation at the moment. And it’s driving me insane. Sigh.. I hate myself sometimes. But then again, don’t we all?

I’m not saying people who cheat should burn in hell. Who knows what goes on in their minds? Who knows what goes on in anyone’s minds. You think you know a person and then BOOM they hit you with a surprise so shocking it’d turn your whole world around.

So cheat if you want. Don’t cheat if you don’t want. It’s your life. Your world. But keep in mind, when things get complicated, a lot of people get involved especially when your web of lies has trapped a lot of insects.

Justin sang it well.. “What goes around, comes around..”
And so did Jessica “One of these days, these boots are gonna walk over you..”

what goes around..

This is an awesome song. And the words really speak to me. I'm not gonna name names but you know who you are. And if you don't, well.. one word karma. Keep in mind tho, even tho the lyrics are about a girl, all u have to do is change the word girl to boy and him to her and it's about a guy. Works for everyone. Thank you Justin.

Hey Girl

Is he everything you wanted in a man?

You know I gave you the world

You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away

I just can't seem to understand

Thought it was me and you, baby

Me and you until the end

But I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it

Don't wanna talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

I can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair

Is the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Shoulda known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around

Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around

Now Girl

I remember everything that you claimed

You said that you were moving on now

Maybe I should do the same

The funny thing about that is

I was ready to give you my name

Thought it was me and you baby

And now, it's all just a shame

That I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it

Don't wanna talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

I can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Can you tell me is this fate

Is the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Shoulda known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around

Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around

Don't wanna think about it

Don't wanna talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

I can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair

Is the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Shoulda known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around

Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around

ride for you..

Hey all..

Came across this on the web. It's for the European edition of Cosmo magazine. It's the 2007 calendar spread. And let me tell you, these boys are just yummylicious!! Just thought I'd share it with everyone. Enjoy..

There are 10 pics altogether. For some reason can't get the other 2 to publish. Nevermind these 10 are hot enough. Sorry that they're not in monthly order. But who cares? Hotness... Why can't we have calendars like these here in our local magazines?

I simply love July and August!!

back for good

Hi all.

I'm so sorry for the loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong delay in updating. It's inexcusable. And God willing, it won't happen again.

So, 2006 is gone. And we're well into 2007 although I'm still not used to writing 07 yet. 2006 was such an extreme year for me. Full of extreme highs and extreme lows. And when it was low, I really felt like the whole world was gonna crash in on me. And when it was high, i was literally touching the sky. December was a gorgeous month for me. It was a good ending to a mad year. Had a wonderful Christmas. And an awesome New Year's. Definitely the best Christmas and New Year's i've had in a long long time. And my bday in 2006 was my best ever. Extreme fun.

Let's see, I nearly died in 2006. I got passed up on job promotions over and over. I lost my mind to love and I don't think I ever recovered from it but I am doing better. Lost a major case against a corrupt capitalist. And the list goes on..

Here's a toast to an even better 2007 where life just keeps getting better and better!!