come clean

Can somebody please explain to me the definition of a relationship? I'm not talking about your brother-sister relationship or your friendship relationship but the lover relationship. Lately, being in a relationship has become so complicated and often over dramatic. Or does that only happen to me and my circle of friends? 6 out of 10 people I know who are in steady relationships are cheating with someone else. And of that 6 people, 3 of them have partners who are cheating on them too. And everyone thinks they are fooling each other but the truth is you're not fooling anybody honey.

Why is so hard to sustain a meaningful relationship? Is it the signs of the time? Could it be because we are surrounded by so much temptation and the idea of the forbidden fruit is constantly dangling in front of us? I don’t know.. I may be promiscuous. I may be a whore. But I still believe in the sanctity of marriage and of being in a true relationship. That’s why when I’m in one, I give it my all. Or at least, I try to.

We all want bigger, better, more beautiful things. So when a person comes along who can offer us this things, we naturally tend to gravitate towards this person. Regardless of whether we have a person of our own. And some people cheat without thinking twice. Some cheat thinking that it’s ok. Some cheat because there’s something missing in their relationship. Some are compulsive liars. Some cheat because they love the thrill. Some cheat because they are in a dead end relationship. There are a million and one reasons for a person to stray but do us all a favor and own up when you’re caught. Denying only makes it worst. And hurting a person who has loved you with all their might is downright unforgivable. I can forgive a one night stand but to have a whole other relationship with another person while being with me is just plain wrong. And shamefully, I am caught in this situation at the moment. And it’s driving me insane. Sigh.. I hate myself sometimes. But then again, don’t we all?

I’m not saying people who cheat should burn in hell. Who knows what goes on in their minds? Who knows what goes on in anyone’s minds. You think you know a person and then BOOM they hit you with a surprise so shocking it’d turn your whole world around.

So cheat if you want. Don’t cheat if you don’t want. It’s your life. Your world. But keep in mind, when things get complicated, a lot of people get involved especially when your web of lies has trapped a lot of insects.

Justin sang it well.. “What goes around, comes around..”
And so did Jessica “One of these days, these boots are gonna walk over you..”

what goes around..

This is an awesome song. And the words really speak to me. I'm not gonna name names but you know who you are. And if you don't, well.. one word karma. Keep in mind tho, even tho the lyrics are about a girl, all u have to do is change the word girl to boy and him to her and it's about a guy. Works for everyone. Thank you Justin.

Hey Girl

Is he everything you wanted in a man?

You know I gave you the world

You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away

I just can't seem to understand

Thought it was me and you, baby

Me and you until the end

But I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it

Don't wanna talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

I can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair

Is the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Shoulda known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around

Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around

Now Girl

I remember everything that you claimed

You said that you were moving on now

Maybe I should do the same

The funny thing about that is

I was ready to give you my name

Thought it was me and you baby

And now, it's all just a shame

That I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it

Don't wanna talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

I can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Can you tell me is this fate

Is the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Shoulda known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around

Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around

Don't wanna think about it

Don't wanna talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

I can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair

Is the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Shoulda known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around

Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around

ride for you..

Hey all..

Came across this on the web. It's for the European edition of Cosmo magazine. It's the 2007 calendar spread. And let me tell you, these boys are just yummylicious!! Just thought I'd share it with everyone. Enjoy..

There are 10 pics altogether. For some reason can't get the other 2 to publish. Nevermind these 10 are hot enough. Sorry that they're not in monthly order. But who cares? Hotness... Why can't we have calendars like these here in our local magazines?

I simply love July and August!!

back for good

Hi all.

I'm so sorry for the loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong delay in updating. It's inexcusable. And God willing, it won't happen again.

So, 2006 is gone. And we're well into 2007 although I'm still not used to writing 07 yet. 2006 was such an extreme year for me. Full of extreme highs and extreme lows. And when it was low, I really felt like the whole world was gonna crash in on me. And when it was high, i was literally touching the sky. December was a gorgeous month for me. It was a good ending to a mad year. Had a wonderful Christmas. And an awesome New Year's. Definitely the best Christmas and New Year's i've had in a long long time. And my bday in 2006 was my best ever. Extreme fun.

Let's see, I nearly died in 2006. I got passed up on job promotions over and over. I lost my mind to love and I don't think I ever recovered from it but I am doing better. Lost a major case against a corrupt capitalist. And the list goes on..

Here's a toast to an even better 2007 where life just keeps getting better and better!!