shake your body (down to the ground)

The other night, I was in my favourite club dancing the night away and I see an old friend whom we shall call FurryB. I haven't seen FurryB in like a year and we've been close for a very long time but you know how it is with certain friendships, you tend to grow more and more apart as you discover your common grounds are no longer common.

I spotted FurryB amidst the crowd of gyrating bodies dancing to BlackEyedPeas' I Got A Feeling. And I knew it was him instantly cos believe me, you'd know it was FurryB anywhere. So I made my way over to him and tapped him on his shoulder and he was more than surprised to see me there. And I'm thinking, why are you surprised? This is my turf. I'm always here. I'm the one who is surprised to see you here. So anyway, we hugged. A very tight hug.

And as I'm hugging him, I look behind him and his friends have a very bewildered look on their face. Like they've never seen two men hug before. And I'm thinking, oh God these are the dumb office type clowns who don't get out much and even if they do, they're pretty closeminded. I gave them the finger while still maintaining a tight hug on FurryB. To which they were shocked by the looks on their faces.

Then FurryB introduces me to them and I look at him, then at them then rolling my eyes I say, "Seriously?" And walked off.

So do not need to be in the company of neanderthals. FurryB texted me and asked me where I was. I ignored him. Wasn't his fault for having moronic friends but I seriously have had enough with homophobia and morons who can't accept people for who they are. Oh and let's not forget the ignorant fools. I have a friend who for her whole life thought that gay people don't need to use protection during sex. She kept asking, 'what's the point?' And in my heart of hearts, I prayed that she meant the fact that we can't get pregnant and not the STI factor.

Ugh..

eternal flame

Sometimes..

Sometimes, sometimes isn't enough

And nothing will never be enough..

It feels like I'm falling and falling and I can't seem to hold onto anything

I can see the people around me and they're all reaching out

And I'm reaching for them but I can't

They look at me

All broken and in pieces

And they shake their head

And they whisper to each other

He did this to himself

We tried to help

But they didn't help

They didn't see

They didn't hear

They didn't feel

I felt them

I felt them breathe

I felt them

But no one felt me

Sometimes..

Sometimes, sometimes isn't enough

don't stop til you get enough

Another lifelong dream fulfilled.

Me. On a raft. Down the river. Pure bliss. And pure excitement. So so happy.

Happened a few weeks ago in Bali with the bestest group of people in the world. There were too many of us for one raft so we broke up into two rafts. Mine was with BK and RS. And it became sort of a battle of the rafts with us seeing who gets to the finish line first and both sort of attacking each other's rafts. The disaster of that idea..

But it was so much fun. I loved it and need to do more of it soon. Nature at her best all around us. All the damn greenery and the gorgeous flora everywhere. It was a very good feeling. Perfectly content with the world around me.

And that was what I seriously needed. Just to get back to nature and be one with her and let her heal me.